HOLDING ON!
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HOLDING ON!
I’m holding on, I’m trying not to lose it! I’m trying to hold back the tears, and my fears, by repeating comforting scriptures, out loud, to myself. I can’t believe I’m in such a mortgage, and tax hole! Oh sure, I can find excuses as to why, like my son’s surgery this past summer. Besides the horror in seeing my son experiencing so much pain, what also troubles me about the ordeal is that even though I knew the surgery was inevitable, I had not been able to save up anything, to help preserve us through the long recovery time.
Any pride I may have had in my ability to figure out how to earn a dollar, has been smashed to smithereens! Every effort I’m making to fix this financial crisis, is yielding zero results, or at best, only giving me enough to put a few Band-Aids on an otherwise broken bank account! I don’t know what to do! I feel so alone!
BUT WAIT!
I do know you are real, God, I know you are Jehovah Jireh! I know you are my Provider, I know all the silver, and gold is Yours. I know that You delivered a fish filled with coins in its belly, to your disciples, so they could pay their taxes. I know you multiplied rations beyond any logical explanation, many times, including the day you were preaching, and a boy’s lunch consisting of a few sardines and, five small loaves of bread (probably comparable to saltine crackers), ended up feeding over 5000 people. I know you’ve provided many times for me, sometimes when I thought it was the eleventh hour, but this time, my faith is being stretched way on past that eleventh hour notion, I’ve held.
Help me! Please dear Jesus, I need help! If they do foreclose on my house, where will I go? How can I take care of my son? Please Jesus, fix this financial mess! My dreams are dying, my dreams of being able to provide a happy, healthy home for my children, where I can be loved, and give love. My dream of being able to earn a living by writing about the things I’ve learned, to help others. I want to help others! How can I help others, when I can’t help myself, or my own?
BUT I KNOW…
God, You are my refuge! You are my defense! You love me, and my children, and I will wait on You!
Oh, my soul, wait on the Lord, for He is my defender, and He will put my enemy down, never to rise again!
The Lord promises to teach my children, so I lift them up to Him, and my soul will rest, knowing God is exactly who He says He is, and He can do anything!
I will NOT be moved by the world, or my enemies, for You, my God, are greater than they!
How much longer? How much worse will it get, before I see Your restoration? Oh, please Jesus, help me! I know there is no other option for me, but to stand firm, in my trust in You! Oh dear God, You can do anything! And I know greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world! Thank you for Your many, many, many blessings!
I know I AM NOT ALONE!
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Mary you are not alone.
Agree with comment above.
Hugs to you Mary and know that you are loved and what you face this day will be but a stepping stone to what God has in store for you later.
Know that you are loved by the Father as you are loved by many that follow with you.
Blessings
You are truly not alone, we will lift you in prayer sister.
I thank God that you can thank and trust God. We have experienced similar things, with the credit crunch (bankers greed and deception) we lost everything, but once I got over being angry, sulking for losing my toys and turned my face 360º back to God, well the river of life started flowing my way again.
Only God can do it, thank God we have God!
Thank you for your encouraging words, and your prayers. I am so trusting that our Lord, and Savior, is going to show Himself in my circumstances, in such a way that I cannot even imagine, and it will be obvious to all, who He is. I’ve never considered myself a proud person, yet, I now realize how God is the reason why any, and all efforts I’ve ever made in my lifetime to support myself, and those I love, have been successful. I guess there was a part of me that believed if anyone ‘tried’ to earn a living, their hard work would suffice. When in actuality, as His children, none of our attempts will work for us, without His blessing, or His purposes being fulfilled. To Him is all the glory. I know He told me to be public about my challenges, and to give Him all the credit when He shows up. I am looking forward to being able to write about it, I’m holding on for now.
I love your hub and I am encouraged by your testimony. God is faithful and He will bless you as you trust Him. Keep holding on and confess His Word only over your circumstances. God bless you.
This is a great hub and a powerful testimony. A hub that is written in the midst of your trouble is so much more powerful than one that is written after the fact, and I can see from reading this that you are learning much about the grace of God as you journey through these difficult circumstances. We are going through our own financial crises and one of the most important things that we are in the process of learning and rejoicing in is about fear.
God spoke to my husband He revealed to him that most of the things we were doing as a family we were doing out of and in response to fear. That was no surprise to me as I know I can be a fearful person but it came as a revelation to my husband who seems to fear no one and nothing. I think that some of my fearfulness about our situation had rubbed off on him. God spoke to my husband and told him to keep his eyes and his mind on Him (God) and to do nothing out of fear, do everything out of love and do the right thing and not the reasonable thing in the circumstances.
Walking this out is proving to be not only the most freeing experience but also it seems to be the most effective. We had been wasting so much time being fearful and worrying but now though the circumstances are the same, no miracle money or mystery benefactor, at least not yet lol, but our experience of these circumstances is so different.
Thank you for the testimony. I really needed to read this blog, which I was lead to by God, at this appointed time. Thanks for being obedient to Christ and His Spirit in writing it.
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b4u2c 2 years ago
Way to hold on to the truth sister! God will never leave you or forsake you. You are His daughter and He loves you. Fear not, the devil is a liar, God shall supply your needs through THE Lord Jesus Christ! Trust in God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Acknowledge the God and Father of THE Lord Jesus Christ in all your ways and He shall direct your path. He never takes His eyes off of you sister. He is every bit as willing to take care of you as He is able. You were bought with a price! He's your daddy. He has your best interest at heart. You have authority in Christ to reign in this life. Don't be afraid, she who is greatly loved by God. Allow THE Lord Jesus Christ to escort you to God's throne of grace, and with humility and boldness listen for and expect resolution. Pour your heart out to your true heavenly Father, the One True God, THROUGH His Son Jesus Christ your Lord.
Psalms 37:25: "I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread." - And you are righteous in Christ!
2Corinthians 9:8: "And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work:"
Philippians 4:19: "But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory through Christ Jesus."